a challenging day!

I woke up this morning after a wonderful nite's sleep (which is rare for me!).  I got ready to go to the gym and work out with our trainer, Eric (7:30 was WAY TOO EARLY FOR THAT!).  I fixed myself a couple pieces of toast (with peanut butter on them! YUM!!!  and good protein for work out time too!).  Once I was done, Claude was done eating his breakfast too and he decided to "measure" himself to see how much progress he's made in the last 3 1/2 weeks.  I was so proud of him!  He's lost 5 inches around his waist!  THEN,  I did something extremely stupid...I chose to "measure" myself too.  BAD IDEA.  It appears that I haven't lost any inches around my waist.  OK, I thought to myself, maybe I measured wrong. (is that even possible?!?)  So, I measured my hips and my chest.  REALLY BAD IDEA.  They appeared to be the same too.  

So, this was how I went to the gym this morning...with the thought that I've been working so hard, 5 days a week, watching everything I eat, counting calories, eating extra protein, taking extra vitamins, and nothing.  So, I worked out (had to go to the bathroom a couple times and "compose" myself!  I know, it sounds silly.  I just felt awful and I couldn't seem to get it out of my head.  Usually, I can literally talk myself up and tell myself to not think about it and keep pushing thru.  Not this time.  I had a mental moment.  The funny thing is, the whole time I felt like crying, screaming, complaining, etc.  I kept hearing a verse in my head.  Galatians 6:9 tells us "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."  OK, it's only been 3 1/2 weeks.  I still have April, May, and June to be what I want to be!  I will keep on.

So, I went home afterwards and headed out to the Pitt County Special Olympics.  Some of our small group had volunteered to help and I was looking forward to this!!  It was fun!  The only thing that wasn't fun was how cold it was.  The day was beautiful, not a cloud in the sky. However, the wind was ridiculously cold.  I had a long sleeve shirt on and the Olympics shirt on over it, but I was freezing.  I left there this afternoon feeling like I would never be able to warm up.  I came home, Claude built a fire for me and I bundled up in my rope, blankets, and 2 pairs of socks!  I fell asleep and woke up feeling kinda light-headed.  I hope I didn't do something dumb and catch a cold because of it.  

Tomorrow, I will continue to do what I need to do.  I know in my head that it's gonna take time, but I will keep having to remind my heart!  Thank you Lord, for reminding me that in You, I can do ALL things!